I'm alive.
In Virginia.
And happy.

I've added some pictures I took before I left New Hampshire. I hope to have some new pictures of my new life here in Virginia soon. Things are really good and although I'm having a few minor issues with the people here, I am over my culture shock.

But I must admit, going to the beach in 70 degree weather in February is pretty amazing. I'm with an amazing person who loves me very much, and I'm so happy everything worked out in the end.

I'm also starting two schools in March. One is a bar tending school and the other is Culinary Arts school. I've decided to be a baker/pastry chef and I'm very happy with that decision.

So all in all, things are pretty good. Really the only thing wrong is I keep loosing weight and I really wish that'd stop. I'm getting very tiny. And it's beginning to worry me.

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I've been very busy. So much going on in my life right now. A long relationship that should have ended a lot time ago, finally is ending. And there waiting for me is a wonderful person.

Distance is terrible.
It takes a very strong person to handle distance. You must be brave.

My poetry is better when I hurt.
I think at least.

I feel like I could write forever right now. And yet when I do it makes me cry. Figure that one out.

I got a hotel job that I wanted. It's exciting I meet some interesting people. It's strange though because you check them in, you make them happy, you find them a room, and then, they're gone before you get back to work. It's like they were never there. Was it all just my imagination?

I was thinking, yesterday a guest was telling me about how surprises are good for your heart and keep life interesting and you know, I never liked surprises, like the ones I knew were coming because I always seem so disappointed and he said to me "If you know it's coming then it's not a surprise!' And he was right. Surprises are good. We need them, they happen every day. Even if we know what the weather is going to be, every morning we wake up, and everything is different. It might not be as warm or as cold as they said it would be, the birds sing a different song, the sun never rises quite the same the colors are always slightly different.

Yeah I've got it bad.


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MY STAZIE IS COMING BACK!
is coming back from England, and I'm so excited to see her!
I think I might tackle her when I see her.
I added a few kitten pictures, well cats, not kittens.
I might add more later, I add -way- more pictures to my Myspace, however I try to filter the ones I think are either A) the best or b) more "artsy" for dA
Because of this a lot of pictures slip by.

Anyway, feeling slightly better, my tummy hurts a lot right now. I cheated on my very strict diet

Again.

I really need to stop that.

Well, tagged me, so here ya go. Although his answers are always so much better than mine!



1. If your boyfriend/girlfriend cheated on you, what will your reaction be?

To my knowing, I've never been cheated on. If the relationship was a good one, and I didn't see any problems, I'd most likely be very hurt and upset and might turn into Tiffzilla and eat everyone. Although I'd also most like call and have her come and stab some people.


2. What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?

That's a very difficult situation.
I'm currently in that situation in a way. And I don't know what to do, so I guess I can't answer that question.


3. What is your favorite video game and why?

Zelda Ocarina of Time, or Wind Waker. <3 Because, they're amazing. Although, I still hate the Water Temple >.< I hope it dies in a fire. YEAH THAT'S RIGHT WATER TEMPLE! I also really like Cooking Mama because it teaches me things without my knowing and when I'm watching some anime or something and I see them eating a food I go "HEY! I mad that on cooking mama!"


4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

Am I ever!!! My life is very confusing right now. And I honestly don't know what to do.


5. What's your ideal boyfriend/girlfriend like?

Someone who understands I'm crazy, and is ok with that. Someone who is kind, and patient, and hilarious. That is the true test, if they can make me laugh. Someone who is gentle, loves animals as much as I do, is respectful, and just loves to have fun with life. It would also be nice if they liked, and were good at the same things I am. Just simply someone who makes me happy and just lets me be crazy little me.
However, although I don't tend to judge on looks most of the time, there is one thing I cannot look past. I. Hate. HATE. Short. Men. I'm very sorry for all of you men out there lacking in the height department. I'm sure you're wonderful. But for some, odd, and unknown reason, I have a fear, nearly a PHOBIA! Of short men!!! I don't know why! So the taller, THE BETTER! (The tallest guy I've ever dated was 6'5. <3 )


6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?

This is difficult because if love is not returned, it's a terrible feeling.


7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?

A part of me would, however, if I feel I'm really bothering the person then I'll try to cut my feelings for them out and just let it go. It's very important for me that the person I like accept me and I cannot STAND to be lead on.


8. If you give someone a reason to lose trust in you, you would....

Well, it would suck, and I'd be hurt. But obviously, if I gave them a reason I couldn't be that mad at them. I'd certainly try to find out if I could make it up to them.


9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently which you'd like to say something about?

Yes. If you live in a busy neighborhood, a nice neighborhood, where people take care of their homes, and take pride in their lawns, you know the kind of neighborhood. I hate it, when ONE, ONE HOUSE kills it for everyone. With their low ridding truck with a spoiler, blaring their terrible music, the base cutting through my house. :anger: I cannot STAND THIS! And yes, someone in the house called the Police. Thank you very much! After 24 hours of that crap, enough is enough! (I hope I didn't sound like an elitist snob >.>; )


10. How do you want to live your life?

With little stress, near the ocean, with a big dog at my side. <3 The dog, the beach, and a warm climate are all I need in life. I just want to be able to relax and be happy. And be proud of the things I do and all that is around me.


11. Is being tagged fun?

I think so. Although this survey is so in-depth.


12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?

Well, my best-friends don't have the same taste in men that I do. <3 BUT! If they DID! I'd be very upset, and appalled that I judged them so terrible wrong. I might just choke a bitch.


13. Who is currently the most important person to you?

This is very difficult because there is not one person who is most important to me but many.


14. What is your favorite phrase or quote?

"YOU'RE DUSTED BUSTER!!" If anyone can tell me who said that I'll love you forever.


14. What is the most predominant color around you?

Pink and Aqua. Also white. Lots of blues and greens. Aqua and Pink are my favorite colors so it's no wonder they're all around me.


15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?

Married and poor. Hands down. If I'm with the right person, and truly love them, it doesn't matter to me.

16. What kind of sounds are the most annoying?

Loud terrible basey songs I hate. CRYING BABIES. I HATE. DELETE! DELETE!!! I also hate people that talk to loudly. Really, I don't like any loud noises. I like dull lights, quiet sounds, quiet music, quiet people. It keeps me calm and relaxed.


17. Would you give your all in a relationship?

I haven't yet. Because I feel I haven't found that person yet. I can be a lot to take and I know this. So I'm careful.


18. What do you see music as?

A staple of life. A life without music is a life half lived! HAH! I see it as expression. I tend to like soft, folky, story-telling music because of this.


19. What type of friends do you like?

Quiet friends that know how to have fun! Most of my friends are artists in one way or another, and they're all very intelligent. We stay up all night talking and playing scrable or spend the day taking pictures in a graveyard. Those are my kind of friends. I like real friends, that let me chew their ears off and arn't embarrassed when I dance in public, infact, most of the time, they're right beside me dancing away. I love my friends!


20. Do you have any favorite pairing(s) in any fandoms?

o.o randomness. Well lets see. I -hate- and I mean, HATE the whole Sailor Moon and Seya thing. UHG! NO! Tuxedo Mask!! BITCHES! Hrm. Well, I'm not up on the whole "Fandom pairings" I suppose, since they weren't a -real- couple, Hilde and Duo from Gundam Wing, I also really liked Treize and Une from the same series.


And, that'd it.

I tagggggg....
and...erm... !

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Update on the Doctor for those of you on here that read this.
I have IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome) >.<
And although I'm not allergic to wheat, I'm 'sensitive' to it so I'm on a very restrictive diet. No wheat, no dairy, no fat.

But it's ok. At least I'm loosing weight?

Anyway, played with the camera today, nothing to great, I'm still learning And my camera still blows.

Have a great weekend!

P.S. Check out my Best Friend she's in England at the moment and her Camera LOVES it there!!!! Check her out!!

I'm not really all better yet. x.x
Infact there's another problem with me and I need to go back and do a lot of the same tests I had done before. I'm also on a no wheat diet, not that I'm really following that >.>

Anyway, went to the beach for the first time this year, it was -so- cold but I took a bunch of pictures that I think came out quite well. I'm trying my hand at photography lately, key word, trying.

Well, sorry I've been gone for a while.

P.S. I'm sorry my camera kinda blows. It's quite old and I don't have the money for a pretty nice amazing camera.